Ladies...All the Ladies, Louder now, help me out :-)

This is so important I have to put it on my blog because I feel so lucky to have such friends in my life. I want the world to know how lucky I am:

To All My Loving and Caring Lady Friends,

I know I have fallen off the ship here for a bit, but I am starting to climb back up into the boat and dry out, or get my life back in order. I have to start with just one big heart felt Thank you, because without all of you I would still be fighting the tide.

Each one of you has been a Godsend to me; I have to be mushy here so all you sapless ladies just hold on, the tears won't last and they won't make you melt. :-) It has been a tough go for me the past few weeks and without each of you my head would still be on a pillow, in my bed in my three day old Pj's, watching sad love stories and going through boxes and boxes of tissues. But since we all know life doesn't wait for us nor does it work like that I need you to know you all have been the most important thing in my life -to use a borrowed term- my safety net. But times are a changing and it is time to start fresh. I know all of you are shaking your heads.

Here comes the sappy part. But just a quick FYI - I don't use names in my blog, I feel it speaks to everyone but those I am really talking to know who they are. It helps with not having to ask permission every time I use one of your names in a story. So if you have questions or aren't sure just ask. I have contacted you all for a reason so you're in here. Knowing that we are all geographically challenged, even though I am in NY some of you are in Manhattan, I couldn't think of a better time in my life to bring all my important ladies together. I truly believe there is a reason for everything and here are the reasons so far:

1. There was a reason why things happened when they did while I was in LA, so that two people from different parts of my life could be there to hold me up. So that they could meet and hopefully help one another out...my gift to you ladies, another friend on the friend belt.
2. There was a reason that I came back to NY when I did. Though I needed convincing, there was a reason I ended up in a NYC apartment celebrating what was supposed to be the Kentucky Derby. And though I had not kept in touch with two brilliant, wonderful, full of life ladies, that thought never crossed their mind when they saw me, all they could do was hug me as we all jumped up and down happy to be back together again. They then gave me a swift talking to :-)
3. There is a reason my running career was put on hold, because now after almost three years I am back in the same area with one of the best runners in the world who I know is going to kick my ass back into shape and we are going to start our normal running routine where she drags me up hills and I curse her.
4. There is a reason another lady is moving to NYC, who feels it is a time in her life to take a big step and shake off some things that may have held her back. She has been a pillar of strength and though we don't see one another as much as we used to, I know I can always run to her and she will knock the wasted energy out of me. Five Am dance off anyone?
5. There is a reason I have not reached out to a lady I used to have my crazy life with. Because I know she will knock my head sideways if she knew I was wasting my time on such garbage but she would laugh while I cried and say that is kind of funny Dee, but man that sucks. Then we would go on to talk about what would be the best bottle of booze to fix the problem.
6. There is a reason one tenacious woman has been calling me two to three times a day and never reaching me but damn she continues to call even if it kills her. This one is full of love and would give everything she owned to one of her friends...I know she is trying to give me an escape plan to come and live with her in her southern home just so I can make her my homemade lemonade on a regular basis. Lady, I am going to call you, you just keep missing each other. You as everyone else, deserve 100 percent of my undivided attention.
7. There is a reason why I gave up on myself for running the most recent marathon I had registered for, I would have taken my friend away from her studies which is truly more important then me bunking up with her for the weekend. She needed to study for finals so that she could graduate from law school while be a full time mommy, a full-time wife, a full-time student and a full-time friend. Go get em!

Each of you is so important these little reasons are just reasons for the moment, but the reasons for a lifetime, no words could explain that. I use to sit in bed when I was younger and wonder who I would ask to be in my wedding. I have no sisters so the choice was difficult. But I felt the people that I would ask to be in my wedding had to be the most important people in my life, had to know me, my history. There is no shortage of that here, I have more love, more life, more memories then I could ever imagine. So I know it is not friend month, but sometimes when we get stuck in the daily ordinaries of this life, we forget to thank people. I have been trying to thank everyone because everyday, is a precious one.

On this note, I love you all dearly. There is not a moment I wish we could be together. For all of you I want to let you know if there is anything you ever need or anything I can ever do for any of you, please know you can always count on me. I may not be the closest friend but one of the most important none-the-less. You are all stuck with me in your lives, never hesitate, never worry, and never be sorry; friends are here for a reason and we just don't feel of good use unless we are asked to do something to help out every now and then, no matter what the task.

Though this will never say all I really need it to or mean it to, I hope it opens the worlds eyes to how lucky I am and how grateful I am every day.

All my love to my ladies!